08.24.2010 80 °F
Ahoy to all my subscribers, followers and others that have nothing else to read (:
Obvious point- I'm back in the good ol' U-S-of-A. Its nice to be back, but let me tell you, its been quite the roller coaster ride. Bottom line, life isn't how I expected it to be when I got home. Skipping all the blahdy blah stuff, I'm still standing on my own two feet with some pretty amazing people backing me up all the way.
I've come to realize the reality that people come in and out of your life for a reason. It may not be the best circumstances or the most enlightening situations, but life goes on. You bring people with you and leave some behind, you learn life lessons, you move on and go about your days. Nothing goes unnoticed, but nothing should be held as a grudge either. I am too young to look at my feet, when what I have to look forward to, whatever that may be, could be absolutely phenomenal.
I'm falling in love with life all over again. My family, particularly my mema (and this means a lot coming from her) claims that I'm brighter since coming back from abroad. I'm more vibrant, more lovely, more open, more at ease. And I see it in myself. Take life as it comes. Yes, the future is important, but taking life one step at a time.. well, thats the joy of it all, if you think about it. Appreciating every little bit, especially since you don't know how long you have until its gone forever. I miss Prague and everything about it, but I've taken what that experience has taught me so it can continue to make me stronger as I begin my new life here at home.
Ultimately, I took this back from my trip. Pretty deep stuff, thats for sure.. but I feel it all. I feel it within me, I feel the change and the betterment. I had my good times and made my mistakes that I've had to deal with here and I am. Sorta dealing. I'm finally feeling the affects of a typical 20-year old woman. I almost find a comfort in not knowing whats to come, but it honestly still scares the daylights out of me. The pathway I thought I had for my life has been dramatically altered and I'm still not quite sure how I feel about it, but I guess how I deal is just how I'll deal. Everything will work out how its supposed to. The old times were great but things can only get better from here. I've never really experienced true heartache and struggle before, but my friends are my crutch and my family is my ground. NOTHING can beat that.
'Til next time, folks. I'll share more enlightening, heartfelt thoughts with ya'll (: